Yesterday, it occurred to me that I should be falling into depression. I've been sending out queries for my YA paranormal novel and not getting any feedback. I haven't received one request for a partial. I HATE the querying process and it causes me a lot of stress, but this time I decided I wasn't going to let it get me down.
I want nothing more than to become a world-famous author with millions of people reading my books. One of the only ways I'm going to get that is through exposure. If I had an agent, exposure would come by my books being in brick and mortar stores. They could schedule me tours, set me up on talk shows. Can I do that as an indie author? Of course, it will just take time and a lot of promotion. Sadly, I don't have excess amounts of time to make sure I'm promoting correctly. I do what I can, when I can. And, technically, having an agent doesn't necessarily guarantee that I will become a world-famous author. Publishing is such a fickle business.
So why the difference this time? First of all, I can't spend my time dwelling on things that could/might be. If an agent doesn't want it, there are other options. Secondly, I'm working on another very exciting project right now, and that's consumed a lot of my time. To be honest, I sometimes forget how many queries I have out there until I look.
Maybe one day I'll finally achieve me dream. Until then, I've got to keep plugging along and spend my time in a constructive manner.