Thursday, January 5, 2012

Throwing My Hands Up In Defeat

I'm high maintenance. I'm not gonna lie. I have high expectations of how people should act, and I get p*ssed off when they don't act like that. The thing is, I don't expect you to do anything that I wouldn't do myself. For example, give me the courtesy of answering my emails. I get email on my phone (and I check it a bazillion times a day), so I respond in a timely manner. I'm not saying you should reply within the hour. Within a day or two is acceptable. I know you're busy.

When you don't respond, or I have to send another email to get a response, that really irritates me. But you know what? I have no control over their actions. So why am I getting so upset about it? I'm resigning myself to the inevitable. I'm giving up. Keeping other people's ducks in a row is exhausting, and I have my own crap to worry about.

So what does that mean? Well, it means that my books/stories might not come out for 800 years. Publishing takes time, I know that. I've been in the game for a while, but when you constantly and repeatedly miss deadlines, something else is wrong. But I've done all I can to help out. Aside from opening my own company or self publishing, there's nothing else I can do. Like I said, I have no control over other people's actions.

I'm not going to let it get me down. I can't. There are too many other opportunities in this world to get bogged down. I'm going to hold my head up and move forward. Maybe things will work out.


Michelle said...

Oh, wow, this isn't the Pembroke Sinclair I've come to know through blogging. Your a fighter, anyone who reads your blog knows that. Take a day - or two, or three - shout, rant, cuss, but then jump back in the game. You won't be happy standing on the sidelines.

Disclaimer: Advice given in a friendly, understanding way. :)

Author of Concilium, available July 2012
Concilium: The Departure, November 2012

Pembroke Sinclair said...

Thank, Michelle. And I'm not giving up writing or submitting, I'm just giving up doing other people's jobs. I have so much to do right now, I don't have time to babysit others who should know what their jobs are. Don't worry, I'll still fighter, I'm just tired!